About 2 1/2 weeks ago my little family was sitting around the table talking about healthy things. When we started talking about sugar my little 6 year old said "I know that's why you are fat. You eat way too much sugar." She was innocent and of course didn't mean any harm, and we talked about that not being nice. It was still a little hurtful tho, a little slap in the face. A few days later our local community was having a parade and my kids were walking in it representing their school. I dropped them off at the beginning and hung around talking with the faculty that I know well. Someone asked if I was walking too, I told them no and that my husband and I were going to watch the kids. My little 6 year old walked over and quietly told the lady that I don't like walking so that's why I'm not. Again, she didn't mean to be rude, she's just an innocent little child. A little child that I didn't realize was noticing so much about me.
The following Tuesday I decided enough is enough. I decided I am ADDICTED to sugar. Candy is my drug and I can't get enough of it. If I could I would try to live off of only candy, chocolate to be exact. I have no finished 2 weeks of sugar free and am working on week 3. (Miracle!) Keep in mind I am not a health nut. So when I say sugar free I mean real sugar; candy, ice cream, cakes kind of sugar. None of that "technically wheat bread has sugar in it and you should drop that" kind of stuff. Lets not get crazy here!
So 2 weeks down and I'm still successful. And no, once you pass 2 weeks it doesn't get easier. Maybe for people who are just trying to get it out of their system. But for addicts like me, still hard. I do feel better. Even today tho I had the thought of "2 weeks is probably good, I can eat some chocolate now." I stayed strong however! I lost 5 pounds, which isn't much but it's still 5 pounds! My next step as of today it to drop the fried foods and other junk foods I love. Like the chips, french fries, not snacking on my kids nuggets, etc. So here I go one more goal added, but nothing too overwhelming. My hope is to give myself small goals and let each one go for a time before adding another. It's going to be a slow journey, but hopefully a successful one.
