About 2 1/2 weeks ago my little family was sitting around the table talking about healthy things. When we started talking about sugar my little 6 year old said "I know that's why you are fat. You eat way too much sugar." She was innocent and of course didn't mean any harm, and we talked about that not being nice. It was still a little hurtful tho, a little slap in the face. A few days later our local community was having a parade and my kids were walking in it representing their school. I dropped them off at the beginning and hung around talking with the faculty that I know well. Someone asked if I was walking too, I told them no and that my husband and I were going to watch the kids. My little 6 year old walked over and quietly told the lady that I don't like walking so that's why I'm not. Again, she didn't mean to be rude, she's just an innocent little child. A little child that I didn't realize was noticing so much about me.
The following Tuesday I decided enough is enough. I decided I am ADDICTED to sugar. Candy is my drug and I can't get enough of it. If I could I would try to live off of only candy, chocolate to be exact. I have no finished 2 weeks of sugar free and am working on week 3. (Miracle!) Keep in mind I am not a health nut. So when I say sugar free I mean real sugar; candy, ice cream, cakes kind of sugar. None of that "technically wheat bread has sugar in it and you should drop that" kind of stuff. Lets not get crazy here!
So 2 weeks down and I'm still successful. And no, once you pass 2 weeks it doesn't get easier. Maybe for people who are just trying to get it out of their system. But for addicts like me, still hard. I do feel better. Even today tho I had the thought of "2 weeks is probably good, I can eat some chocolate now." I stayed strong however! I lost 5 pounds, which isn't much but it's still 5 pounds! My next step as of today it to drop the fried foods and other junk foods I love. Like the chips, french fries, not snacking on my kids nuggets, etc. So here I go one more goal added, but nothing too overwhelming. My hope is to give myself small goals and let each one go for a time before adding another. It's going to be a slow journey, but hopefully a successful one.
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
Monday, June 22, 2015
Who Am I
Why I'm doing what I'm doing? I am a mother of 2, have a wonderful husband, and love my life! My two kids are now in school and this last year has been challenging for me. Why? I think when it comes down to it I have had so much time on my hands it has made me realize that I don't know exactly who I am or what I want anymore. I wanted to get married and I did. I wanted to have children and I do. I want to raise my children and I try my best to be my best every day. But the question who am I? I don't really know. When people ask me what I like to do I don't really have an answer anymore. I use to say I love to swim. Later in life I loved to hike and was all about the mountains. Over the years I have let my children be my excuse to not take care of myself. Having kids flipped my world. I love it and I struggle with it, but who doesn't?
Over this last few days my sweet daughter has made a few innocent comments to other people about my weight, my eating habits, and my lack of moving. I didn't realize my 6 year old was noticing all of this, but it was a slap in the face. So last week I decided to set some goals. They are small but my history of dieting is go big or don't bother. And I have failed every time.
So today I have sat down and decided to write this blog. Why? For now to get the motivation and the support needed. I can't do it alone. For the future, maybe my success will influence another person who hasn't cared about him or herself in a really long time. Not only do I need to learn to love myself, I hope to learn to love healthy food and improve myself physically.
So this blog will be that. I plan to put in recipes I enjoy, post pictures of my progress, thoughts that inspire me, and you may even read about my struggles and failures. Let me thank you now for reading and being a part of my community!
Over this last few days my sweet daughter has made a few innocent comments to other people about my weight, my eating habits, and my lack of moving. I didn't realize my 6 year old was noticing all of this, but it was a slap in the face. So last week I decided to set some goals. They are small but my history of dieting is go big or don't bother. And I have failed every time.
So today I have sat down and decided to write this blog. Why? For now to get the motivation and the support needed. I can't do it alone. For the future, maybe my success will influence another person who hasn't cared about him or herself in a really long time. Not only do I need to learn to love myself, I hope to learn to love healthy food and improve myself physically.
So this blog will be that. I plan to put in recipes I enjoy, post pictures of my progress, thoughts that inspire me, and you may even read about my struggles and failures. Let me thank you now for reading and being a part of my community!
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